When I was in elementary school, I remember having lots of crushes on boys. I swear I would have a new crush every week, but being a child I knew nothing about the world of love. I also didn’t know anything about other relationships aside from the straight couple examples that I would see everywhere.
But I would have close relationships with girls, but only a couple. I look back on it now and see that I preferred deeper connections with a small amount of girls I knew and sillier ones with the many boys I befriended. I always remembered thinking “boys make better friends then girls”. As a child this made sense to me, if a boy stopped talking to me that was fine because I had more to talk to and laugh with. But if a girl stopped talking to me, it would bother me, I remember dwelling on it. Am I ugly? Am I not girly enough? Am I not fun? Why did she stop talking to me? As a child, I guess I always thought I would end up with a boy anyway, and ending up with a girl never crossed my mind. So maybe I thought the relationships between the two should be different? I’m not 100% sure…
